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Friday, March 14, 2008 |
Something has to give, or else... |
I honestly think that I am losing my mind, and nearing some kind of breaking point. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. I don't know what to do at this point, and am positive that it's only my kids that are keeping me alive. To love someone so much and be such a constant source of hate and disappointment for that person hurts...
I think I need help, but not sure if I want it at this point...
Something has to give. |
posted by Rob Mallory @ 4:46 AM  |
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Thursday, March 13, 2008 |
So |
Why is it that Janae has to treat me like shit? Seriously, I want to know :( |
posted by Rob Mallory @ 11:27 PM  |
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A Dream I Had |
I had a dream yesterday that I just can't seem to get out of my head, and now that I think about it it's more of a nightmare really.
The dream didn't touch on the circumstances surrounding it, but Janae left me. I spent the entire dream crying and trying to get her back, but she kept treating me like I was nothing. I would see her and she wouldn't see me and I had no idea what I had done to make her hate me so much.
From that dream I realized just how much I love Janae (not that I didn't already have a pretty good idea). I don't think I could live without her. I think I would literally wither up and die. From the moment I met her I think my soul attached to hers and mine can't go on without hers.
I don't know if what I'm saying makes any sense, but there it is. I wish the memory of this dream would go away because when I think about it I feel an empty kind of feeling in my heart. I don't want to feel that empty feeling, that feeling of living without her. I need her, and I always will... I just hope she feels, truely and honestly, the same way that I do.
-Rob |
posted by Rob Mallory @ 3:28 AM  |
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