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Rush
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Snakes & Arrows
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| Wednesday, September 19, 2007 |
| A Friend I Never Met Passed Away |
Can you grieve over a friend you have never met and never really talked to? Can you grieve a friend when all you really had were words, words that made you smile, get angry, and feel many other emotions? Can you grieve a friend who never really knew who you were?
If you can't then I am breaking some sort of rule because I feel hurt inside at this loss. We at the www.mikeportnoy.com forum are more than just strangers on the internet, we are all friends. This week we lost a great friend and our little community are grieving this loss together. Say what you want about internet friends, but they can be some of the best friends you'll ever have.
KeithK was one of the most articulate and kind members on our board. He and I had a lot in common as far as music, and I am grieving.
Can you grieve over a friend you have never met? You're damn right you can!
Rest in peace my friend, you will be missed.
NP: KeithK - National Geographic (Song For Tommy) |
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| Tuesday, September 18, 2007 |
| Too Many Toes and Not Enough Clothes... |
I'm feeling a little better today. I really can't say I'm feeling great, but at least I'm not crying... that's got to be a plus. Sometimes I really wish I weren't so emotional as I'm pretty sure it's frowned upon in this day and age.
The Good:
Well let's see, my wife wrote some touching things to me, and about me, on Myspace. It's always good to know that someone in this world loves me unconditionally. My little boy, Robbie, is turning 6 Saturday. Actually, that is a huge "the good". My 'World of Warcraft' charachter Rathalso hit level 66 today (Hydraxis server). Only 4 levels 'til 70.
The Bad:
Sleep didn't go all to well today. The weather decided to go back up to 91 today. Oh joy I know. Last week was great, but this week looks like it's a heatin' up.
The Ugly:
Well, my family still hates me... I guess that's going to be a permanent in my life. Eventually I'll have no choice but to move on but for now it sucks pretty bad.
Anyhow, I really don't have anything else to say right now, and I'mthinking maintenance is probably done so it's time to get back to verifying sales at work.
NP: TransAtlantic - All of the Above (live) |
| posted by Rob Mallory @ 4:02 AM |
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| Sunday, September 16, 2007 |
| The Dusk of Summer |
I guess I haven't written much but I guess I'll change that now. Summer is almost over and was going fine until a few days after my birthday. Somewhere around the 23rd I lost my family forever. It's tearing me apart inside.
My dad, who I've felt hasn't ever really been fond of me anyhow, can't even look at me, and goes out of his way to avoid even driving by me.
My brother Dereke won't say a thing to me, and even if he did I feel it would only make me feel worse inside.
My brother Nick would probably rather I were dead, and I can't say I blame him. Sadly I agree with him, I rather I were dead.
But worst of all, my mom cries when she see's me. We talk but I guess I'll never be mommy's little bobert ever again.
I feel like an orphan. If it weren't for Janae and the kids I would be just another statistic. When I was a teenager and wanted to kill myself my mom kept from doing so by saying "tomorrow may be the best day of your life"... well I think those days are gone. I have no parents, and no brothers.
I have nothing else to say... |
| posted by Rob Mallory @ 9:58 PM |
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| Danux Auber: Goodbye |
You were always there for me when I needed you
You picked me up whenever I fell down
Standing by my side when no one else would
Even though I never really deserved you
Day after day my life a complete mess
The story of every lonely, suicidal teen
You never gave up on this wasted life
And now as time has passed, I must confess
I know I’ve always been embarrassing
I’ve always been the black sheep in your family tree
And through a small chain of mistakes
Now you can’t even look me in the eye
I know in my heart it will never be the same
And everyday another piece of me breaks
I know deep inside you used to love me
Even if you never really liked me
I know I’ve always been embarrassing
I’ve always been the black sheep in your family tree
But if I could say one last thing to you
It would be to thank you, to tell you how much I miss you
Even if we’ll never be family again
And through a big chain of mistakes
I let you down too far to ever come up again
And even though it pains me in every way
It’s not really your fault
That everyday another piece of my heart breaks But the worst pain of it all is what I say to you now
To the family I've always known... goodbye |
| posted by Rob Mallory @ 9:56 PM |
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